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It’s been awhile since I write in my blog, well I think I’ve just got distracted by things that prevent me to do productive activities haha. Yes, I’m on the last term of my university career, a several bunch of classes and the final boss, I would graduate and would be adding 3 letters in my name, SIP. As you can see, my college career is rather being below average, but I never really regret it (only a bit, about 5% haha). People call me stupid, I don’t care. Well maybe when I first got into this so called number one university in Indonesia, I was very determined and motivated, but then I lost the reason why I should maintain such spirit, and after years of attending classes and doing assignments, it revealed that I don’t like these kinds of thing. Everyday doing such boring things like reading books about research talking about anyone else’s theories rather than them own and doing papers about phenomenon with so called academic way of writing, boo it’s really boring! For some people it’s their lives, they love to do it, but not me, I’m just completely not into it. The other justification is, the main reason I got here is because I had to prove to everyone that I’m not a mere looser that day, so I studied days and nights to fight and prove these kinds of thing. I would really like to maintain those spirits but 21 years of living I realized something about a life I should carry on, I don’t have to do things I don’t like.

I once thought that I don’t have any passion, it really making scared out of me since passion is what defines you, what makes you a human being, what makes you stay alive. Then I re-thought about things I really fallen in love with since I was a little kid, it’s in the motion pictures. My parents are entertainment business practitioner, my father works on TVRI, the first TV station in Indonesia and he also a music video director specially dangdut music videos. My mother in the other hand is an artist manager, she manages artist activities and administration things and got money from the percentage of the money the artist make, but she doesn’t have the official label yet, she’s just an agent but she still planning for creating a legit label so the profit would be multiplied. From the description above, as a kid who used with entertainment managing business, I grow interest in it, the money raised from that business is not bad at all, it could manage my parents to run a family, the works also aren’t really that complex such as doing boring researches and other complex jobs outside there. But I want to step much forward than my parents, I want to be a movie director. Since I was a baby, my parents are moviegooers, they brought me to the cinema at least once in a month, they’re movie lovers (even though my father lost interest in it) it grows my interest in it. Maybe as an amateur, It’s pretty hard for me to start over, to write scripts, to think about details, and a story that worth being an artistic movie, but I’m not giving up yet, I would do my best to learn and eventually be great like Fincher, Nolan, and Quaron, top 3 my all time favorite!!!